“Mom, would you just stop trying to fix everything?” My daughter’s words are still ringing in my ears almost twenty-four hours after our little communication glitch last night. Looking back and reflecting on the evening, the past month, okay, her whole life, she is absolutely right… I love to fix things. Or maybe it is more that I don’t want to see her, or any of my children, family, friends, in pain. If there is a fix, a word, an {Read More}

The season is over. Easter, Lent, and Passover have passed.  It has been a strange season for me, as I struggle with my father’s terminal illness, and reminisce with friends and loved ones who have also experienced loss this season. It is strange how we view death. We, as humans consider it to be the end of something. Death symbolizes loss and grief, and we look back on what we have had, or what we have missed during that persons’ {Read More}

Recently I had the opportunity to revisit my past. While journeying back through my memories, I realized this one portion of my life is one that I never really speak about in great detail. It is a portion of my life that I have had the most regrets and feelings of failure about. It was when I first became a Christian. My childhood had been riddled with abuses of all kinds and my altar call was a cry for deliverance. {Read More}

Has it happened to you? It’s happened to me; more times than I care to count. I have been judged unjustly. Recently a friend told me that people judge you because they don’t know who you are.  Well, of course that’s true.  Let’s think about it, if they knew me, and understood me, then they would not have a real reason to judge me, right? To judge is to form an opinion on, to decide upon critically.  Other definitions are just {Read More}

Things are calm for today. Just a little over a week ago email campaigns were flying trying to urge us to vote for one candidate or another. Bloggers were stating their views and hearts with anyone who would read, and unfortunately a lot of missteps were taken. Some of us acted out of emotion, some fear, some elation…but most of us acted out of our perception. All too often we are quick to criticize or judge individuals against some crazy {Read More}

“Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Thy sight…” (Psalm 19:14) It’s all about the words that we say, all about the words that are written on our heart. Do we really say what we mean, or are we going for the thrill of the moment, the self-indulgence of our flesh… Last night, I missed the mark. While at an outing with my husband someone referred to me as Ms. Brown, and {Read More}

Today my youngest is celebrating his 10th birthday. It is hard to believe that it has been ten years since I felt the wonder and the anticipation of giving birth. I remember the hardest part of any of my three pregnancies was always the last few weeks. Not because I was gaining weight, and feeling more and more uncomfortable. Not because of the false labor pains, backaches, or frequent restroom breaks, but because of one word – EXPECTATION. I remember {Read More}

It’s late at night and the cries come out from my daughter’s bedroom.  I rush to help her, to take her in my arms and let her know everything is okay, mom is here. One would think that my daughter is a baby, looking for a parent to care for her needs.  But in this instance she is 13, and still searching for someone to help her.  While she is able to communicate with words, she cannot find words to {Read More}

It is a familiar scene in all of our lives. We are sitting down for a meal with good friends, friends that may be closer to us than our own families.  During dinner, and afterwards friendly, love-filled banter pours out. Suddenly the question is asked that grabs everyone’s attention. “Do you love me?” All eyes and ears turn to see the response, because deep down inside all of us, we yearn for love, we seek to be loved, and we {Read More}